Monday, June 13, 2016

My Depression Story

Do you feel chronically depressed?

Is there a steam of consciousness asshole in your head constantly repeating how much you suck to you as you just try and go on with your day to day life?

Do you struggle to connect with people?

Do you wish you had more friends at the same time you dread having to be social?

Do you feel like nothing will ever change?

Do you want to give up?

If so, you may be me. You are certainly describing me. And hey, if it describes you too  - would you like to be friends? My depression and anxiety are the biggest, most space-filling things in my life so we already have plenty in common! Let's get together and cry. We can watch YouTube and pet cats and hope for a better tomorrow.

Maybe our first hangout session would go like this:

"Omg, I'm so depressed."
"What, I know, me too."
"Isn't it the worst?"
"The total worst."
"Worst ever."

Shoots self.

Depression and Anxiety have got me down again! Alert the press! I mean, SOMEbody DO SOMEthing!

I'm approaching a 'milestone' birthday and it's got me bummin. But yeah, most things on most days got me bumming. Now lest we think this is just a sad gab fest (what, did the depression hangout ending with suicide give off the wrong impression?)

I don't know how to write about my problems. I don't know how to talk about my problems. To anyone.